Yes 2019 has dealt me a good deal but I do have highlights and would like to take this moment and reflect on them:

1. I fell in love with myself all over again! I learnt to appreciate myself, so much so that on my birthday I flew to Durban for a day. All on my own. I sat by the beach and reflected on the past 41 years, soaked it all in. I forgave myself for the silly mistakes I made, for loving the wrong people… I wouldn’t be the person I am today if it wasn’t for them anyway, so yes they made me.
2. Left the comfort zone in terms of my career … I took a horn by its bull. I asked for feedback from my stakeholders. I particularly asked them, if there’s anything I could improve on every quarter. It wasn’t easy because I could have easily opened up myself for criticism that could have destroyed me. I did this because I am believer that nothing grows from comfort… I did and it payed off. And I am grateful.
3. I ran my first marathon! In a scotching heat I completed what I started and it felt great. Running has brought so much in my life. I feel great most of the time because when I go out running I use this as an opportunity to reflect and communicate with my Creator. Running has taught me patience and to focus. I am able to endure a whole lot because of running… whenever the going gets tough I think of myself running and focus on completing the race.

I am proud to say I run regularly and consistently, still struggle a bit with sleep but it’s much better because I want to believe with my every being that my Sister is resting peacefully too. 💜💜💜

This particular blog is dedicated to Manqoba who thanked me for sharing my grief journey. Manqoba there’s no formula to grief you take it each day at a time and hope it gets better and hurt a little less. I wish well my dear brother 💪🏽