A month ago today ðŸ’œ

A month ago today my life changed completely. I lost my youngest sister. She bravely lost her battle to epilepsy. Yes bravely, I said. She lived with it for nineteen years, seizures that only happened at night. Never had death hit so close to home, and the fact that I was there when she was confirmed gone doesn’t help. I felt like I didn’t shake her hard enough or call out her name out loud. All of a sudden, my sister had gone. I remember wanting to shout at the morgue people to not suffocate her with the plastic when taking her body away. I will never forget how helpless I felt when seeing my dad broken, for not realizing on time that her last born was no more.

Later in the day, Comrades committee announced the date for for 2020. And the date is 14.06.2020. The day my sister was classified as deceased. I made a decision there and there that I will participate, no scrap that I will complete #Comrades2020 in her honor. 💜.

The beginning…

On January 14th 2018, I ran my first half marathon. When I reached the finish line, I was so proud of myself. I wasn’t even aware that I had finished it under sub 3. I was just happy I pulled it off.

This after the festive season, where healthy eating nor training is foreign. I focused on the goal. Finishing the race.

After this race I started working on my pace. Building endurance and making sure my mind and legs are in sync.

Then came the crazy idea of running Comrades 2020. I know right…

This all seemed possible for I ran three times a week, and did grid the other days. The Comrades2020 goal was reachable. Until, I started working again… Traveling between Bryanston and Centurion took it’s toll on me. Lost all the momentum I built in five months. Suddenly my dream was distant. Far away and unreachable.

One thing I had forgotten was that I shared my dream with those closest to me. And what a blessing they are… I have started running yesterday thanks to Nandi. This means waking up at 03:30, driving 5kms to go run 10kms. Crazy I know but it’s worth it.

I plan to be consistent. Get back on track and focus on making Comrades 2020 a reality.

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